my irrational fear of ...

this is my first blog post. ever. so, i may be absolutely horrible at this. here goes nothing ...

i have many fears. however, like most people, i don't consider my own fears to be irrational. i'm too busy being terrified. when i see a spider, i don't stand there thinking, "well, it's completely absurd for me to be so scared of the little fella." no. i'm jumping up on the couch and screaming for someone, anyone, to come kill the blasted thing. so, yea, not a fan of arachnids.

i truly believe that all clowns are evil. what exactly are they trying to hide behind all that makeup? i remember getting talked into going to reaper's realm back in high school. my friend and i were determined to find a way out of that line - we knew there would be clowns in there and wanted none of it. in the end, not wanting to look like total wimps, we gave in. after, of course, being told "don't worry, they aren't allowed to touch you." apparently, someone forgot to tell those things they weren't allowed to touch us. and who the hell gave them chainsaws?! like i said ... evil. as for the origin of this fear, i blame the movie "It." yet, i have no fear whatsoever of tim curry. weird.

i am also extremely frightened of needles. the thought alone is enough to make me panic. this could have something to do with my fear of blood as well. for those of you who know me, yes, i am aware that my tattoo was not licked on by kittens - but i didn't actually SEE the needle.

the next one is what i seem to get the most comments on. i won't take the first of anything. whether it's cds or dvds, lids for fountain drinks, straws, books, plates, etc. i always reach back and take from the middle. i'm not really sure why i do this. perhaps it's the thought that, by the time you decide "yes, i want this", there have already been many people that have picked up that exact same thing - "do i want this? no ... no, i don't think i do" and put it back. manhandled merchandise just isn't my thing.

i just might also be afraid of being a horrible blogger. just saying ...