panic

alright, i admit it. i do suffer from panic attacks. i haven't always gotten them, i'd say it started about 10 years ago. it's a little scary because i never know when one will hit. most seem to center around being alone, though. for example, going to a store by myself. i can't even count how many times i've gotten as far as the parking lot and couldn't even get out of my car. it's such a horrible feeling - can't catch my breath, start getting really hot and then feeling like i'm going to pass out. sometimes i even start shaking and it's easy to swear it's from the force of my heartbeat since it seems determined to burst out of my chest. it's like an overwhelming fear takes over and i have no clue where it comes from. i haven't had one in awhile, probably because i try my best to avoid going places alone. shopping's more fun with company anyway.